Hey Travel Family,
It feels so good to sit down and write TW properly for the first time in a little while. As you know, Matt and I have been working on the road in Japan and it’s been tough finding the time to do it. I have so much I want to tell you and catch you up on!! (P.S all the photos in today’s post are from our Japan trip!)
I better start with the time-sensitive news, right?! If you happen to have access to the BBC, Matt and I will be on ‘The Travel Show’ this weekend. We pre-recorded an interview talking about travelling as a couple and were candid about the highs, lows and everything in-between. I tried to find out exactly what day and time it’s on but it was difficult to figure out for some reason. So, if you happen to have access to the BBC and a tv guide – be sure to watch it! Otherwise, I should have access to a clip/link I can share here next Friday. Hopefully, it puts us in front of some new people and helps us grow our little business that bit more.
Speaking of which, this year has been off to an amazing start. I shared with you guys how difficult 2018 was for me. It was very difficult personally and all that hardship affected our business, pulling me away from it and leaving me with no energy to work. I don’t know if the Universe was trying to give me space to deal with that or it was simply just a rough time but, as I shared in TW a few times last year, we didn’t book a whole lot of jobs and we had scary moments where we felt like things weren’t growing at all.
Well, this year has been completely different. We booked the job to Japan and shortly after that, job offers start to come rolling in very fast! This week, we’re off to the Capricorn Coast to do some filming around Yeppoon and Carnarvon Gorge in beautiful Queensland. After that, we’re headed out to Southern Queensland Country to film around Toowoomba and the Bunya Mountains. Both of those jobs, we’ve been engaged to create videos for the client to use for marketing on their platforms. Of course, we’ll also make our own videos too for YouTube but it’s an amazing feeling to be recognised for our video work and have clients see it and say, ‘I love that! I want to use that to promote our region.’
It doesn’t stop there either – We’ve booked a job to Thailand and then the U.S too! Work has just been coming in so fast it has almost been hard to keep up with. It has been the most exciting feeling and just the biggest relief. There are always times when we question whether or not we’re good enough and if we’ll ever get to a point where we don’t have to worry about failure or money. Last year really pushed those feelings to the edge but we stayed strong and never once felt like walking away or as though it were too hard. Now, it feels like the tides have turned and there’s driving energy behind us.
Not just that but it really feels like we know what we’re doing now too. Our Japan trip really confirmed that for us! We worked really hard and the result is just something I’m so proud of. I watched our first Tokyo video with Matt last night (as a little preview before it goes on YouTube tonight) and I just felt so proud. I can see how far we’ve come, how much we’ve learned and how good our videos are now. It’s such a great feeling to be proud of your work and knowing we have all these trips coming up, it’s just more opportunity to keep practising, working hard and improving.
On a personal level, I’m feeling more like myself than I have in a long time. You guys know I had a really tough time last year in my personal life and it left me exhausted, anxious and, at times, in periods of depression. I remember in about October or so I spent a whole day crying in bed with Matt and my mum, feeling like a total and complete failure. But being able to share that here with you, take time out for myself and rely on my close loved ones helped me get through it. I was very worried that 2019 would just be a repeat of 2018. I desperately needed it not to be but I was very scared it would be, that 2018 was just the new normal and that’s how life would be from now on.
As I shared in a TW earlier this year, I spent a lot of time over the holiday season break working on myself. I had a lot of things I had to work through, deal with and let go of. It was hard being honest with myself, working through it all and trying to understand all of it. It was like untangling a big knotted ball of wool. But, I got there and I managed to let go of a whole lot of hurt, sadness, pain and doubt. In doing so, I cleared a whole lot of space for new and good things to come into my life this year. More than that, I also redefined some boundaries for myself, choosing my happiness and health above all else.
That was immediately put to the test at the start of this year when I had to choose between booking all these jobs and leaving space to deal with personal issues. I chose to book all the jobs, refusing to let my dreams suffer for something else. It was very scary and I wasn’t sure how I would ‘do it all,’ but really, I didn’t need to worry because all the personal stuff took care of itself! It felt so good to say yes to all the things I wanted to say yes to and, in the end, all my worries were just that… worries.
I’ve noticed a huge change in myself already this year. I feel so much more motivated and upbeat, I’m loving the creative process of our videos and am even finding myself enjoying writing again. I’ve had the energy to do all the things I love around the house, try out new recipes in the kitchen and just be me. It’s a great feeling and I can’t help but feel like this year is different, somehow. There seems to be different energy around Little Grey Box and our work.
June this year marks 5 years since I left my job and, in many ways, I thought things would be different at this point. But, I realise everything has happened in the right order for the right reason. I’ve learned a heck of a lot and it has taken Matt and me a long time to work on what we do and get it to this level. It would’ve been nice if we’d managed to do it sooner but, that wasn’t how it was supposed to happen. As I’ve shared here already, I truly feel this is a brand new era of change and growth for me and I really am seeing that flow through into everything I do and experience at the moment.
I’m so excited to see what 2019 brings into our lives and I’m glad we’ve got you to share it with and support us through it all. Thank you!
I hope you’ve had a great week, I’ll talk to you again next Friday.
Love, Phoebe xx