When in doubt…

On Friday last week, I woke up filled with doubt. I don’t know what took over me, I think it was a combination of some weird dreams I’d had and spending too much time looking at the internet. Whatever it was, it totally took over.

So many doubts swirled through my mind, mostly about my abilities and my success. I’m really open about sharing my thoughts with you guys and I’d say 90% of the time I’m really positive. That positivity and trust fuels me and has led me to where I am in my life. But that remaining 10% is the crappy stuff that creeps into your mind sometimes.

Well, Friday was 10%’s time to shine. I kept thinking that maybe I’m just not good enough to succeed how I want to. Maybe my writing isn’t good enough. Maybe my photography isn’t good enough. Maybe I’m not interesting or unique enough. Maybe there are a million other bloggers prettier, funnier, more interesting and more talented than I am and maybe I’ll never succeed how I see myself succeeding in my heart and mind.

Matt tried his best to scoop me back up from the pits of my despair, but I was in a real funk. What made it even more frustrating was that I’m so grateful for everything I have right now and I know, logically, that a positive attitude can snap me out of feeling this way. It was one of those times when you know you’re being silly and you know how you should stop it, but you just can’t.

Phoebe Lee in Hangzhou

On the 29th April I had the most intense meditation of my life. I don’t know what it was about that day, I guess it was just ‘meant to be’, but I sat down to meditate and it was incredible. I asked questions and received answers, really specific ones. The meditation was so intense that I emailed my closest friends and told them about it, which is how I know the exact date of this awesome occurrence.

Here’s a copy and paste from the email I sent to one of my best friends. In it, I’m explaining what ‘information’ I got from my meditation: there will be a day soon when I am doubtful and confused, on that day something big will happen and I will know. It will change everything. All will be revealed. It is my job to trust and keep moving, don’t resist and don’t pause. Keep pushing.

Well, last Friday was doubt day and just as my meditation had said, something happened to confirm I’m on the right path.

I received an email from the lovely people at Air Asia asking me to join their Blogging Community. From there, they invited me to come to Bangkok a week after we return home from China. This is a huge deal for me, it means the world to me to be thought of highly enough to be invited to be part of this. It also aligns with how I see myself living and working. It’s like my heart’s vision for my life is aligning more and more with my reality.

Later that day I also received an email from another HUGE travel company, who I can’t name just yet, asking me to do some work with them. For me, these things aren’t just great opportunities career-wise, they’re recognition of every decision I’ve made and all the hard work I’ve put in to get here. It feels so good.

Free in Beijing

Since Friday lots of things have come trickling in as signposts that I’m on the right path. I’ve had a feeling all year that we’d be going to New Zealand this year and a number of companies came to me at a similar time with different pieces of the puzzle to get us there, so we were able to confirm a trip to New Zealand in early August too.

I’m not sharing these things to brag or make anyone feel uncomfortable. I’m sharing them because I want people to know that when you have doubts or you’re unsure, just take a moment to still yourself and look within for the answers. Trust your heart and your intuition for guidance. Trust your desires. Deep down, you know what’s right and what feels wrong. Don’t get distracted by anything, be razor-sharp about what it is you want from your life and just go for it.

If you don’t think it’s possible, then remember I did it. If I can do it, anyone can do it. I’m not some super-rich, highly-qualified, super-model… I’m just a regular girl who went for it and made it happen. I wear size 12 jeans, I earn a modest income and I have a life I love. That isn’t a coincidence and it isn’t luck; it’s taking control of your life and making every decision count. Make every decision a thoughtful one, with YOUR best interests at heart.

There’s no point waiting. What for? So you can do what you want with your life when you’re older? No. Do it now. Do it while you can and while you have that desire and burning in your heart to go after it. Don’t let anything or anyone stop you. Just go for it.

Those four words were my mantra last year; Just Go For It. I wrote them down everywhere and stuck them up in my house on post-it notes. They inspired me no end. This year my mantra is; Think Bigger. I tend to be so happy and excited by what’s right in front of me I forget there’s a bigger picture and that my ideas and future are only ever limited by my imagination. So this year I have been focused on seeing things from a higher perspective and thinking bigger.

What is your mantra? I’d love to hear your thoughts, so please share in the comments below or on Facebook.


Phoebe is a travel writer and photographer with a love for storytelling and making people laugh. Matt is a videographer and photographer with a passion for the great outdoors and big adventures. Together we inspire big adventures through our guides, videos, vlogs and photographs. Find out more about us here.

16 Comments on When in doubt…

  1. needed that lift, cheers!

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  2. drdeeptijain // May 31, 2015 at 10:45 pm // Reply

    A real optimist idea !! Worth a read, worth a follow!!

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  3. Passport_Liz // May 31, 2015 at 5:10 pm // Reply

    I can totally relate, and it’s nice to hear I’m not the only one who has these doubts.
    You’re doing great though, keep it up! 🙂

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  4. yincheniful // May 29, 2015 at 1:20 pm // Reply

    Wow, I am so happy that I took notice and stopped by your blog today. I think I really needed this pick-me-up. Thank you so much; I will keep your mantras in mind!

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  5. lisamicheleburns // May 28, 2015 at 10:10 am // Reply

    You rock Phoebe!! So happy to read those days happen to other people too 🙂
    Super excited to read about your adventures in New Zealand, it’s one crazy, beautiful little country!

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  6. pintsizeperspectives // May 28, 2015 at 1:59 am // Reply

    THANK YOU for sharing! Your words are always so timely to where I am at and or what to be. Your blog is so encouraging. One of my favorite quotes is “Don’t Covet, Compliment and Aspire” it’s easy to look around and see all those who you feel do it better but instead of letting that take you down, let it inspire you. Also realizing even the greats have doubts, your not alone but you are on the right path. So go get it girl! Do your thing. You got this.

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  7. http://theenglishprofessoratlarge.com // May 28, 2015 at 1:12 am // Reply

    Congratulations on your recent manifestations of your meditations. One thought that sustains me is :Play the moment,not the results. If you are in the moment, then the results will follow naturally.

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  8. honeyandgazelle // May 27, 2015 at 9:28 pm // Reply

    Congratulations! (: Don’t doubt yourself – you write well, photograph well and always have such uplifting posts! 2015 will definitely be a big year for you!

    x Jia, honeyandgazelle.wordpress.com

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  9. Nicola Easterby // May 27, 2015 at 6:41 pm // Reply

    Oh how I needed to hear this! Just go for it- those four words are perfect. Thank you for this post Phoebe, you are seriously such an inspiration to me!

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  10. Aw, Phoebs! I’m so proud of you! Big congratulations to you! You totally deserve it 🙂 I am very new to meditation and I am always curious as to what meditation practices other people follow. I was wondering if you use a specific meditation process or app? I’m using Head Space App at the moment and love it! Congratulation once again Phoebe 🙂

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    • Thanks Anna, your kind words and support always mean so much to me. When I have a down day I think of lovely people like you who support me.

      I use a few guided meditations from The Little Sage, but mostly just do it on my own. I find it works best for me.

      I find a comfy spot and sit with my feet on the floor. I just close my eyes and let my body and mind sync with the world around me. I think about a question or visualise something and just let it flow from there. Sometimes it’s 5 minutes sometimes it’s 45! I read somewhere that it’s important to let things flow in and out of your mind, rather than just stop your mind altogether. That helped me a lot.

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  11. Lo @ Travel the Unbeaten Path // May 27, 2015 at 2:44 pm // Reply

    I love it! I’m rooting for you, girl! And I had a similar experience with a deep mediation where I received some crucial information/affirmations and my life is changed for the better because of it! Good for you for listening and just going for it!

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  12. woodenitbeamazing // May 27, 2015 at 1:41 pm // Reply

    Powerful thoughts, Phoebe.

    And this couldn’t have been at a better time. I’m facing some serious doubts, and I think I’m going to stick to my decisions, follow my instincts and Just Go For It too.

    Thanks for writing this!

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